I have problems with trust, since young.
Growing up in a not so close knitted family, I never learned to trust any of my family members, needless to say friends or anyone else.
And each time I attempt to trust someone, I get myself hurt and betrayed in the end.
It happened not once or twice, but countless times.
Eventually I clammed up, and stopped telling anyone anything.
I still have some friends whom I can tell my problems to, but I try not to bother them all the time because after all, they have their own problems to work out, right?
No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to place 100% trust in anyone.
However much I want to learn to trust again, I can't bring myself to do it.
You know, once bitten twice shy?
Oh wait, there's someone I can trust:
with love, Weiqian
Its the end of first week in school as a year 3!
Why does it strangely feel like it was just a few months ago when we were still freshies?
So far so good, with just 12 hours of classes per week.
The best thing is that we don't need to bring laptops every-single-day!
If excluding project meeting days, of course.
Speaking of projects, there are some which are due in Week 4.
Which means, you'll probably be seeing more 'complains of stress' posts when project mania begins.
And then after all the intensive work, attachment starts in Week 8.
Why am I telling you all these anyway?
Just one photo of my 2 dearests.
How adorable. (:
Being nice to people,
Sparing a thought for others,
Giving in to them,
Isn't that what friends do for each other?
Nope, that's not always the case.
Because you'll end up at the losing end,
And having to do all the shit jobs is what you get in exchange.
Through this, I saw the ugly side of people.
Because there's nothing wrong with wanting the best for yourselves.
Adam said, "See, that's what I told you right from the start."
Suck thumb!
Forgive and forget.
A: Eh, look at my eyes!
Me: Huh? Whats wrong with your eyes??
A(panicking): I think I'm becoming retarded!!! Look carefully, my eyes one big one small!!
And I burst out laughing.
Me: Cheyyyyyyy!
Why you so cute?!
Weekends always whiz pass so fast. ):
Back to school.
I should go on a money-saving mission!
And I miss Theresa and Siewhong!!!
Gahhhhh, this post is all over the place and so 'out of randomness'.
Been having the same bad dream over and over again.
SometimesIwishIneverhadtobeputthroughsuchemotionalandmentaltorment.
with love, Weiqian
So worn out
with love, Weiqian
I promised to blog about this day.
We called it the 'surprise', which was supposed to take place quite a few months ago.
But due to some unforeseen circumstances (e.g huge quarrels), it was delayed.
Although it wasn't much of a surprise, but I still appreciate okay, really.
He bought me Yami Yogurt first, then we had light lunch/dinner at Superdog.
Our first time dining at Superdog- something to strike off from our 'things to eat' list.
Caught the movie "How to train your dragon", then for some shopping,
since we had some time to spare before heading to the destination.
(He made reservations at the restaurant at 8p.m)
I was a little hesitant about the movie but it turned out better than I expected.
We then made our way to Timbre@old school.
Climbed what seemed like a never-ending flight of stairs before we finally arrived at the restaurant, and by then, perspiring like pigs.
Didn't order much food cause the pizza and buffalo wings were more than enough to fill our tummies!
Loved everything there- The ambience, food and cocktail.
Obviously Adam was the one who finished up my drink because my blood circulation's too good for my own sake. Hee. (He's calls me noob and is afraid I might get drunk)
Ahhhh, looking at the food makes me salivate. :(
Well, we didn't take a photo together because it was too dark and the flash would attract a lot of attention from others.
After dinner, we went for a short pool session (1/2hour).
And since it was rather late already, we decided to cab home to Pioneer.
I dropped my phone in the cab (although Adam said he checked the seats before we left).
Panicked, spammed my phone and called Comfort, and they helped me to locate the driver!
Thankfully the passengers were not greedy enough to keep it.
So Mr Tien, the cabby, told us to meet him at Bishan in half an hour's time.
Gosh, we were at Pioneer for goodness sake and it's midnight!
And Adam, being awfully nice, decided he would drop me at Teban in a cab before travelling to Bishan to collect my phone for me.
I heard the cab fare amounted to more than 40bucks, he even got yelled at by the cabby for being late.
Sorry, and thanks for the day! (:
Working on Saturday and Sunday, bummer.
Sigh..
with love, Weiqian
Just a few pictures, rest of them are in fb.
Spending time with my lovely girls because Theresa will be flying off to China in a couple of days' time whereas SiewHong will have to concentrate on studying for her upcoming A's.
I'll definitely be missing them a lot.
One of the days we met for dinner at Formosa for our all-time favourite ban mian, then followed by desserts at MOF.
And this was last Saturday, at Orgo at Esplanade.
Yummy food and awesome martini. (:
An attempt at manicure some time back,
Look at what he did to my nails!!! :S
(Hee, and he's still quite proud of it)
For the past months,
we've been quarreling over the same issue over and over again,
yet nothing gets solved.
But all's well now, we'll just have to wait until he finally decides to get it sorted out..
Right Muslim boy?
Adam's bringing me out for a nice dinner tomorrow!
Rare opportunity ya, am pretty looking forward to it. (:
Will definitely be back soon to blog about the dinner.
Missing my Brandvan boy!
Should go visit him soon.
Okay, hungry hungry.
Bye.
with love, Weiqian
Don't know why I choose to hurt myself over and over again.
Don't know why I'd rather do this when I can back away.
This pain, is excruciating. Like stabbing yourself in the heart a million times.
And it doesn't get better, only to feel it becoming more intense.
I'm on the brink of breaking down, it hurts fucking bad.
I can never put into words this feeling.
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After a heavy downpour, I put on my happy mask, ready to continue.
I'm fine (:
with love, Weiqian
